Just as it is
“…and needed the most shameful despair, in order to learn how to give up all resistance, in order to learn how to love the world, in order to stop comparing it to some world I wished, I imagined, some kind of perfection I had made up, but to leave it as it is and to love it and enjoy being a part of it” – Herman Hesse, Siddhartha
I’ve heard so many times that everything in life happens for a reason. Yet sometimes, something so awful has happened that it is impossible to imagine how that could be. Do you have one terrible hurt that you can’t accept? It’s okay, you are not alone. I do too. I was so badly disappointed by someone I loved that it felt like the whole world had let me down.
When a person is deeply hurt, they either live their life in anger, or they become a seeker. I have been seeking for years, through yoga and spirituality, to find peace. Then one day, something amazing happened. I stopped thinking with my head and started seeing with my heart. Everything looked different. It was clear to me that the world was made out of love, and so was I. Silent tears covered my cheeks as I realized how my feeling of being at odds with everything and everyone was simply a terrible illusion. I felt truly apart of everything for the first time since I was a small child.
It is so difficult to understand how the world can be so beautiful and so hideous at the same time. I think we all struggle to try to understand this. But it can’t be understood, it can only be accepted. The world is both terrible and wonderful, and there is nothing we can do about it.
At some point, you have to surrender to this truth, and move on. We all want so badly to be perfect, for the world to be perfect. Perfection doesn’t exist, and there is an incredible relief that fills you when you realize this. Let your ideas of perfection go, and start seeing with your heart. Fall wildly in love with the world without any fear of being hurt or disappointed. Fall in love with the world just as it is. Because when you do, it will love you back.